I knew there was a reason I didn't keep a scale in the house. It's just too damn depressing. Unfortunately, weighing one's self is kind of a necessity when on weight watchers. I guessed my starting weight to be somewhere around 320.
Excuse my language, but fuck me when I saw 340 when I stepped on the scale today.
No wonder I have felt like such crap in the past few months. The last time I had stepped on a scale I was right around 300, having just lost 20 lbs while taking adipex. I had to stop taking adipex because I'd been on it the limit of three months, and it was also causing me some fibromyalgia related problems. I figured I'd gained that 20 back in the past 6 months, not freaking 40. Good thing I started this venture when I did.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Good Lord!
Food today:
Breakfast: Raisin bran w/ 2% milk, banana, coffee with creamer (lots of coffee, lots of creamer)
Lunch: What I thought was an innocuous salad and lots of water
Dinner: The three bites of leftover fajitas from last night after I found out how "innocuous" my salad was.
Soooo I joined weight watchers online today. I did the regular points/meetings program a few years ago and did well on it for the amount of time I stayed on it. (About 3 months/ lost around 20 lbs). With a toddler and a husband who has a funky work schedule I just don't have the ability to go to a meeting every week so I joined the online program.
Due to my weight, I am allowed like a ginormous number of points.. .something like 49? Yeah, anyways, when I went in to the eTools to log my food intake for the day, I was patting myself on the back for breakfast (9 points). Then I got to my salad. Okay, yeah, my salad consists more of meat, cheese, egg, and croutons than actual salad. But 39 points???????? Holy hell!!! Um yeah, I'm staying away from the salad bar at work from now on. I'd have been better off to have a Big Mac and Fries! LOL
So now I'm making dinner for the hubby since he's not home from work yet. At least he'll have leftovers for his lunch tomorrow. lol
For exercise, I am currently working out to the new Zumba DVD collection. Yes, I am still working up a sweat just learning the steps on the intro disc. But it sure is fun! I tried to do a little yoga before zumba today and I couldn't get through the first five minutes of the dvd... boring! I should probably give it more of a chance though.
Breakfast: Raisin bran w/ 2% milk, banana, coffee with creamer (lots of coffee, lots of creamer)
Lunch: What I thought was an innocuous salad and lots of water
Dinner: The three bites of leftover fajitas from last night after I found out how "innocuous" my salad was.
Soooo I joined weight watchers online today. I did the regular points/meetings program a few years ago and did well on it for the amount of time I stayed on it. (About 3 months/ lost around 20 lbs). With a toddler and a husband who has a funky work schedule I just don't have the ability to go to a meeting every week so I joined the online program.
Due to my weight, I am allowed like a ginormous number of points.. .something like 49? Yeah, anyways, when I went in to the eTools to log my food intake for the day, I was patting myself on the back for breakfast (9 points). Then I got to my salad. Okay, yeah, my salad consists more of meat, cheese, egg, and croutons than actual salad. But 39 points???????? Holy hell!!! Um yeah, I'm staying away from the salad bar at work from now on. I'd have been better off to have a Big Mac and Fries! LOL
So now I'm making dinner for the hubby since he's not home from work yet. At least he'll have leftovers for his lunch tomorrow. lol
For exercise, I am currently working out to the new Zumba DVD collection. Yes, I am still working up a sweat just learning the steps on the intro disc. But it sure is fun! I tried to do a little yoga before zumba today and I couldn't get through the first five minutes of the dvd... boring! I should probably give it more of a chance though.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Intro
So yeah, I'm starting a "fitness" blog. So funny! For the past 32.75 years of my life I've been anything but "fit". Exercise might as well have been a four letter word. But this past winter brought into clear detail why I needed to do a 180 with my life.
I've been dealing with my own health struggles for a few years now. I suffer from fibromyalgia ,just one of the nice little gifts I acquired after having a massive car accident a few years ago. The toll the pain (and all of the whacky meds I'm on to TRY to control the pain), I believe, are taking a toll on my body something fierce. Cymbalta puts me in a mostly constantly agitated state.Lyrica made me put on like thirty pounds... not good for someone who is already categorized as morbidly obese. But unfortunately did the most good for my pain! And that's just some of the side effects (and some of the meds...). Fibro is my biggest health concern but not nearly my only one.
So this winter, a friend of ours sort of unexpectedly came down with liver failure. He's been in and out of the hospital for months and is currently waiting on a transplant. He's in his 40's. Then.....my cousin, who for all intents and purposes was fairly healthy, had a heart attack and passed away at 44 very unexpectedly. She left behind a husband and three kids, her youngest just getting ready to graduate high school this year.
I know that if there's anyway I can prevent it whatsoever, I need to do it. I just can't stomach the idea of leaving behind my husband and my "boo-boo" like that.
Boo-boo's real name is Abby, and she is the light of my life, my raison d'etre, the one that keeps me up at night... LOL She's 19 months old, and the result of a high-risk pregnancy due to my obesity and other health issues. I want to be around to see her grow up, go off to her first day of kindergarten, cheer her on at her first dance recital, keep her calm through the woes of high school, cheer her on at her first marching band competition (LOL), see her graduate and go off to college. Marry her greatest love and have me some grandchildren.
All the while growing old with my wonderful husband. And I have this gnawing feeling that I'm not going to be around that long if I don't do something about it. So here it is, my 180. Or at least a wholehearted attempt at it. I figured I'd blog about my journey to help keep myself focused on the goal. And maybe if someone like me stumbles upon my ramblings, I can inspire them.
You know what, let's change this from a "fitness" blog to a "health" blog. Because that's what's most important here.
--dre
I've been dealing with my own health struggles for a few years now. I suffer from fibromyalgia ,just one of the nice little gifts I acquired after having a massive car accident a few years ago. The toll the pain (and all of the whacky meds I'm on to TRY to control the pain), I believe, are taking a toll on my body something fierce. Cymbalta puts me in a mostly constantly agitated state.Lyrica made me put on like thirty pounds... not good for someone who is already categorized as morbidly obese. But unfortunately did the most good for my pain! And that's just some of the side effects (and some of the meds...). Fibro is my biggest health concern but not nearly my only one.
So this winter, a friend of ours sort of unexpectedly came down with liver failure. He's been in and out of the hospital for months and is currently waiting on a transplant. He's in his 40's. Then.....my cousin, who for all intents and purposes was fairly healthy, had a heart attack and passed away at 44 very unexpectedly. She left behind a husband and three kids, her youngest just getting ready to graduate high school this year.
I know that if there's anyway I can prevent it whatsoever, I need to do it. I just can't stomach the idea of leaving behind my husband and my "boo-boo" like that.
Boo-boo's real name is Abby, and she is the light of my life, my raison d'etre, the one that keeps me up at night... LOL She's 19 months old, and the result of a high-risk pregnancy due to my obesity and other health issues. I want to be around to see her grow up, go off to her first day of kindergarten, cheer her on at her first dance recital, keep her calm through the woes of high school, cheer her on at her first marching band competition (LOL), see her graduate and go off to college. Marry her greatest love and have me some grandchildren.
All the while growing old with my wonderful husband. And I have this gnawing feeling that I'm not going to be around that long if I don't do something about it. So here it is, my 180. Or at least a wholehearted attempt at it. I figured I'd blog about my journey to help keep myself focused on the goal. And maybe if someone like me stumbles upon my ramblings, I can inspire them.
You know what, let's change this from a "fitness" blog to a "health" blog. Because that's what's most important here.
--dre
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